Wednesday, April 15, 2009

Wishcasting Wednesday


What Do You Wish To Clear Out?

That's the wish prompt for this Wishcasting Wednesday. I thought, when I decided to join in on this time honored tradition of combining energies to make wishes more powerful, that it would be an easy thing to do...

But, not so much.

It's easier to feel something than define it. Defining a feeling can be really heavy lifting. But, you can't have what you can't name. And, if you want to wish, like the old adage says, "Be very careful what you wish for because you just might get it." And if you get it? Then what??

So, I'm sitting here on a soggy morning, tossing my thoughts this way and that...being afraid that I won't wish it right...avoiding the hard work of defining what I wish to have cleared out, put away, done with, rearranged, freshened, functioning...

Almost as though I'm back at the beginning of this year when I discovered there's a Buddha in my closet and the lesson to let things go and move out of my space. The physical act of cleaning out my closet, took me down the road of thinking about my emotional cubbyholes and what needed to be done there. So that caused a reflection on mentally clearing out for the new year.

And, now, here I am again trying to put into words my wish to further clear my space. Okay then, here goes nothing...take a leap of faith and JUMP:

I wish to clear out this sense of being disconnected from my life. I feel as if there is a gauze between me and living fully. As if I am a spectator of my day instead of a participant in the day. I keep feeling as if I am waiting for something to arrive. But, I go to bed each night feeling as though I waited in vain.

I wish to clear out this sense of being unimportant because I am unemployed. This notion that I'm not good enough because I'm not known here as a high powered professional. I wish to clear away my old Self-definitions that keep me from happily defining who I am NOW. I wish to clear out all false thinking; all thoughts that leave me feeling less-than. I wish to clear out all thinking that no longer serves and the feeling of sadness that follows me around some days.

I wish to clear out this inability to feel at home in this life of mine...shed these thoughts that wound even more because even thinking them leaves me feeling conflicted. I know better, yet I feel ungrateful. Without cause! I have so very much, am so very blessed, why can't I easily recognize it?

I wish to glory in my days. And, in my nights I wish to drift asleep grateful for all that has been brought to me and through me. I wish to walk in the truth. I wish to abide in love with me.

So mote it be. And as I wish it, please, won't you wish it for me?

Namaste' Till Next Time,
Holly aka Wishing Woman

N.B. 6:30 PM: I am humbled and honored by all the comments that have been left on this entry. Truly. And, to wish for more without first acknowledging all that has been given would be very poor magick, indeed. So, thank you for all of it. Thank you for reminding me of my truth and worth. Thank you for being there with me and for me. My strongest desire is to do the very same for you.

28 comments:

Eileen said...

Holly, you are so very brave to put this into words on a screen. I wonder how many thousands could say these words speak for them also. I will join you in making these wishes come true ... for you ... for me ... for all who are in need of them too.

Caroline said...

A big wish well-worth wishing!

As Holly wishes for herself, I wish for her also!

Toni said...

My Darling Queen!!! what a stunningly forward post ... & can you see, now that it's up, spelled out, how interconnected those wishes are?

Here's the one I reacted to most: about your lack of job (as it used to be) and its effect on your ego libido? Holly, if you were working you wouldn't be as available to write these posts you write, which I (anyway) have come to depend on, THESE POSTS which take your lightning bolt wand and stir me all up within. You HAVE a job, but because it's something you love and doesn't come in the same costume you're accustomed to, complete with in/out box, perhaps you haven't recognized it, haven't realized the vast import of it. I DO! I am happily wishing your wishes for you, and also holding up a great big huge magnifying glass pointed at MY heart so you can see a perspective that hopefully will speak the volumes I feel and play a melody of your wonderfulness all around you as your wishes come true.

danette said...

Such a bold post, and so beautifully expressed.

As Holly wishes for herself, I wish for her also.

sema said...

A powerful post!
As Holly wishes for herself, I wish for her also!

Tabitha in Bliss said...

As Holly wishes for herself, I wish for her also!

Hugs & Happiness!!

KnittingJourneyman said...

Oh-so touching-you spoke from my heart as well-you are not alone.
As Holly wishes for herself. I wish for her as well.
Blessings!

Cam@Journey Wildly said...

I agree with Toni. Inspiring & Looking After all us Hooligans is quite a job. You serve us well, Queen Mother.

As you wish it, I wish it for you...

Lissa said...

Holly, thanks so much for sharing.
I have a feeling that you are not alone.

As Holly wishes for herself, I wish for her also!

GreenishLady said...

Yes, yes, yes.

As Holly wishes for herself, so i wish for her also.

Sara said...

As Holly wishes for herself, I wish for her also!

teachable said...

Dearest Holly, The blessing I wish for you today is this...May you (and all of us) be alert to the moments that remind us of the significance of our actions in the ordinariness of our daily lives.

I used to think that nothing I could contribute to the world would be enough. I wasn't good enough, smart enough, skinny enough, pretty enough...JUST NOT ENOUGH!

As stated in ACIM "I am as God created me. For this one thought would be enough to save you and the world, if you believed that it is true." A miracle is nothing more than a change of perception.

You are perfection itself; God manifesting Herself in all Her Glory as Holly...as each one of us; individual creations of the One Creator. When I try to wrap my mind around that thought...WHOA!

Mother Theresa said we can't all do great things but we can all do small things with a great love.

A quote I keep on my desk at work says, "Remember that if the opportunities for great deeds should never come, the opportunities for good deeds are renewed day by day. The thing for us to long for is the goodness, not the glory."

My fondest wish for you, my friend, is all the goodness; each and every day. You are enough...more than enough! And so it is!

Eileen said...

Holly, as much as your original post this morning moved me ... I am equally touched by your responses here and I know your heart is full! Each and every expression is so full of love and gratitude for you, I know you will feel it too!

Poseur Geek said...

Good wishing. I'll throw a little wish push of my own behind them.

Dreamwriter said...

As Holly wishes for herself, I wish for her also!

Genie Sea said...

As Holly wishes for herself, so I wish for her also!

May the way be cleared for a fresh start :)

Jamie said...

What a beautiful, thoughtful, deep wish.

As Holly wishes for herself, so I wish also.

So mote it be.

Gypsy said...

As Holly wishes for herself, I wish for her also!

Oh, how you so eloquently put forth the very same thoughts I have thought of myself, AND trying to clear away, day after day. The thing is, you put iout there in the Universe. You have been heard, so keep wishing as I wish for you as well and soon you will find all you need and desire!~

Blessed Be,
Gypsy (Jennifer)

Samantha said...

Big, beautiful wishes. I honour your courage in digging so deeply and sharing your shadows with us.
As Holly wishes for herself, so I wish for her also.
Bright Blessings, Dear One.

Gail H. Ragsdale said...

As Holly wishes for herself, I wish for her also!

kazari said...

Big, brave wishcasting!
As Holly wishes for herself, so I wish also.
There is no wrong wishing : )

Peaches said...

As Holly wishes for herself, so I wish also.
I look forward to your post every day. It brightens my world. Thank you.

Oma said...

I, too, love today's post. However, here's a poem from the book "No Enemies Within" that may offer a different way to look at "things".

Let my wounds be my teachers,
Let my pain be my guide,
Let my monsters be companions
to the loneliness inside.

I stopped making choices,
turned my back to the truth,
let it all happen to me,
lost the best of my youth.

I learned to be loyal
to things which would betray
my heart, my mind, my spirit
my right to a clean, clear way.

Let my bruises be my advisors,
Let my scars be my guides,
Let my pain teach me truly,
how to be on my own side.

Namaste'
Betty

Rebekah said...

"I feel as if there is a gauze between me and living fully. As if I am a spectator of my day instead of a participant in the day. I keep feeling as if I am waiting for something to arrive."

I can definitely relate! I feel like this a lot of times myself.

As Holly wishes for herself, so I wish for her also! :)

LadySilverOak said...

As Holly wishes for herself, so I wish also.

So Mote It Be.
Love & Light
LadySilverOak

Pamela said...

As Holly wishes for herself, so I wish for her also.

I am so glad you've joined us on Wishcasting Wednesdays! What a brave and powerful post, and so beautifully expressed!

My sister and I were talking about some of these same issues recently; how we've always been waiting for "that big thing around the corner" to appear and make our lives more meaningful and important. We fail to recognize that what we're doing right now does have significance.

Your beautiful spirit comes through in your writing and I pray that you will come to see how much that spirit is blessing all of us.

NICOLE said...

As Holly wishes for herself, I wish for her also. :)

Peaceole said...

As Holly wishes for herself, I wish for her also.

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