The natural warrior instinct in me was raging to be let loose! And, the part of me who is the peace keeper just wanted to throw up her hands and say, "Let the pieces fall where they may." But, for the sake of all of the others who were in the situation with us, I couldn't. So I shut my pie-hole and ate all the things I wanted to say.
But here's the thing, unlike usual, the passage of time hasn't cooled my temper. I'm still angry. I don't want to be the bigger person any longer. Not as it relates to this individual. I'm not able to do it any more. I'm tired of doing it. There's no pay-off; nothing in it for me to keep doing it.
No, I don't believe I will be the bigger person any longer. I don't think anyone should constantly be asked to take the high road in a relationship. It's not equitable or reasonable. It's not even a relationship; it's a time bomb.
So, I wonder, does it make me a bad person? Have you ever come to the point when there was nothing left to say except, "I'm done. I can't be the bigger person all the time. I don't want to do it anymore with you. You'll just have to go find other people who are willing to tolerate you and always be the bigger person when it comes to the way you treat people. I'm out."
Is it all right for me to admit I'm a failure when it comes to being the bigger person?
Namaste' Till Next Time,